I've been away for nearly 5 days and as I type that, it makes it sound like I've been on vacation. That's no where near being true. I've been sleeping since Saturday. If you know me at all, you know I don't usually sleep much. I'm ALL about utilizing the time I have in a typical day, but when I arrived back from the Whirlpool Event in Michigan, I started feeling dizzy and disoriented. My vision got blurry and I thought to myself Eh. I'm just tired. My husband gave me the day to rest and rest I did.

The following days it didn't get better. Dizziness turned to nausea and, before I could blink, weakness took over my body. I couldn't walk straight. I couldn't sit up straight. Heck, I couldn't think straight. Off to the doctor I went, not knowing what they would say. In all honesty? I didn't even care what he said, I just wanted to feel better because my "To Do" list was getting longer and longer by the minute. So, he diagnosed my condition as vertigo, which, according to my pharmacist and long time friend, is a fancy word for dizziness. He prescribed meds which I found out were basically a glorified Dramamine. I'll tell you the dead honest truth... I was confused on what vertigo really is and why I couldn't make it go away. After three days of straight sleeping, I'm still at a loss of what caused my condition and completely baffled that while my real LIVE self was passed out on the bed for a week, my online self was living an active life online throughout my social media circles. People were interacting with the virtual Sara and, as far as they knew, I was fine. Which brings me to the question that's been floating through my mind Do bloggers live two different lives?

Awhile back, I got the news that a good blogger friend of mine had gone through a divorce. It broke my heart. I mean, I was literally crying at the news. I've gotten really protective of not only my marriage, but my friend's marriages too. I WANT to see my friends and family have successful marriages and divorce just breaks my heart in two.

Before I go chasing rabbits, my friend's news was a shocker because on her blog she was the picture perfect family. On her Facebook page? Same thing. It seemed like her husband was perfect, always bringing her gifts, supporting her as a professional blogger. Her kids were just as beautiful as can be and on the Faith front? She was an inspirational woman that I aimed to be like.

So, when she called me crying telling me what happened I was frozen in shock. How could I not have known she was having problems? How could I NOT have seen this? In hindsight, there were clues, but one would have to REALLY be looking for those clues. I remember thinking I really knew nothing about this woman and her family. Nothing. 

The fact is, I knew what she wanted me to know. I knew the happy side, but we ALL know life isn't just happy all the time. So, while I understand why we only post "good pictures" of us on Facebook, I realize that the human side of us likes to portray that our life is well........ good.

When it comes to full time bloggers, like myself, things change. I blog for a living. I've created a professional position that brings income into our household and keeps me busy all week long. It's a job, but this "job" began on the notion that I wanted people to see the real me. I don't ever want to portray myself as someone I'm not, but I also need to stay professional and not "air the dirty laundry". Know what I mean?

So, what do you think? Do Bloggers live two different lives? Are we able to live our REAL life online? And most importantly, did ANY of you have an inkling, the last five days, that I never once blogged? Or were you communicating with the virtual Sara?

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