I stood in the kitchen, with a cup of coffee, looked up at my husband and said, "How could someone just lose their Faith like that?" I've met MORE people the last six months, who have lost their Faith in God, than I have my whole life and I noticed, just recently, that it's taking a toll on my own Faith. While they, certainly, have their reasons to turn away from the church, or God in general, those reasons do not belong to me. As I thought and prayed more about it this morning, I realized, I can't ever fathom leaving Him. Ever.


I was talking to a friend of mine, about a week ago, who has gone through the most unbearable of circumstances. She poured her sweet little heart out to me and I thought to myself, I'd be so broken if that was me.

But she wasn't.

She spoke so calmly. Her voice was so sweet and reassuring as she told me, "Sara. I know God's plan is perfect. Nothing will ever make me believe otherwise, but this hurts. Gosh it hurts and I need it to get better. I need to be built back up and I need my Faith to be stronger than ever so I can be there for my kids. Heck. So, I can be there for myself when I feel like losing control."

That is one strong woman.

But others describe her as weak, because they've been there in the darkness and feel He has left them. So, why stick around?

Over the last few weeks, I've spoke to people on a deeper level, than I have in a really long time. They've shared their experiences of brokenness and why they've left the church completely and each and every time it's because of.... people. Real people, with real problems, who have cut them deep, people in Ministry, and people who, on the outside, live for God, but on the inside bear feelings of racism, selfishness, and judgement.

I've been there. I've been hurt deeply by someone in the church, on more than one occasion and it hurt more because I think, They know better. All in all, they are human just like us.

Nothing is unfathomable and everyone is capable. I understand that and THAT is why I can't ever leave my God. Without him, I'm left with absolutely nothing. So, on this Music Monday, I'm listening to a song by Bebo Norman. There's this line that reads, "I'm everyone who's ever lost hope."

I've been there folks. I admit it. I've lost hope before, but EACH and EVERY time, MY God has breathed into me, lifted me up, out of the muck and mire, and placed my feet upon a rock. EVERY. TIME.

It's this indescribable love. I could never dream of running from it.

Bebo Norman- Never Saw You Coming
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I am the lonely
The ones who slip away
I am the secret
The words we dare say
I am the promise I'm about to break...again

I am the leader
Who cannot find the way
I am the preacher
Who somehow lost the faith
I am the begger reaching out my hands...again

And I never saw you coming
I could never dream of running
I have never known such love before
My God, you come, come and breathe your breath in me
Steal away what's left of me
Til you are mine and I am yours

I am the lover with no one to hold
I am the seeker with an empty soul
I'm everyone who's ever lost hope

And I never saw you coming
I could never dream of running
I have never known such love before
My God, you come, come and breathe your breath in me
Steal away what's left of me
Til you are mine and I am yours

Fall like stars on my shore
Still you are so much more

And I never saw you coming
I could never dream of running
I have never known such love before
My God, you come, come and breathe your breath in me
Steal away what's left of me
Til you are mine and I am yours