God Calls for Rain, I hope.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
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A while back, I went jogging. My favorite part of jogging around my old neighborhood was the small lake in front. If it was early morning I would see steam floating above the water and the sun shining perfectly above it. This scene was just breathtaking!
The morning after I was told we'd be moving to North Carolina I went for a LONG jog. I threw on my iPod and left before any child in the house opened their sweet little eyes. Jogging usually lets my anger and stress out. I don't have to throw things or hit things or cry... just "jog it out."
So, as I'm trucking along to Toby Mac the music stops and the next song begins. It went something like this:
My Goodness! My eyes became blurry, my lip quivered a little bit, and my mind really just died. My heart took over the rest of my thoughts and as I reached the lake..... BOOM! I fell! Seriously, it's like the ground just jumped out and tripped me! I laid there on the grass in front of the lake, just crying and asking God.. Why? Why do I have to move? Why, when my life is going so great, do you want to shake it? As the song continued it started raining. It was MY healing rain. It was MY Lord telling me that he will soak my dry heart. He was telling me not to be afraid, but to trust Him.
It was one of the most intense moments of my life and I hopped up as I saw my neighbors van drive toward me. I mean, how embarrassing if she saw me just laying on the ground crying like a baby! I couldn't help but laugh as I wobbled through the rest of my jog. Even still, I stopped in on another neighbor and told her what happened. What did she tell me after all that?
"You went jogging WITHOUT ME!!!!???" (I miss her, LOL)
I guess, I wanted to share this little story because I feel like I need one of the "intense moments" to shake me out of my every day life. I know, in my heart, I'm not putting God first. My Faith is dwindling and I keep telling Him I love Him, but how do I get back to the place where I was before? I'm not reading my Bible. I rarely pray anymore. Church has become secondary to us since moving here. I need a Shake Up!!
I'm not afraid to be washed in Heaven's Rain, let's see that forecast God!!!!!
wow! I love your honesty. So cool to have Jesus speak to you in such an awesome way...thanks for sharing your story. you've encouraged me to walk deeper in my faith.
Aww - I think we all go through those ups and downs with God. I have been feeling the same way lately. I will be praying for you and you get the rain! What always gets me is when I remember that it is me - He is still there and waiting I have to take the first step back.
I love your honesty as well. God is so on time for life and reaching out to us when we are open to Him. I have been going through some hard times with the Lord lately that I cannot really blog about (on my blog) but I cannot wait for the Lord to show me what His plan is. I know He will be late by my standards but right on time for His!!! :) Have a great Healing Rain kinda day!!!
I know how you feel. And you're a brave soul for being so open and honest. I think we all go through those times when we know we're not where we should be in our relationship to God. I'm just so grateful He never gives up on us and is always there waiting. Thanks for sharing your story and faith.
I also know how you feel about running. What a great time to be alone and be able to think clearly.
BTW-I'm from the good mail group. Love your blog.